End of Christmas

For Christmas, Bullwinkle got one of his favorite toys (shown below). Each "arm" has a squeaker in it. He loves to run around squeaking it. He will even play fetch with this toy (he won't bring back balls if I try to play fetch with them -- he'll run and get them, but not bring them back).
Well, after many games of fetch and many hours of enjoyment, this toy has seen better days. Bully has finished de-stuffing it. Look at the guilty face. He actually usually has a guilty face any time I pull out the camera.

I like this one. He looks like he's trying to act all innocent. Toy, what toy? I didn't see any toy.

As part of their Christmas gift, I gave both boys a bag of treats. Rocky didn't waste any time digging in to them! I didn't get any regular pictures of him, but I did get a little video clip. Now if it will just load.......

8 Favorites

8 Favorite TV shows (not necessarily in order):

• Life
• Chuck
• Smallville
• Eleventh Hour
• House
• The Mentalist
• NCIS
• Monk

8 Things I Look Forward To:

• Paying off my basement remodel
• Paying off my house
• Buying a new, bigger car
• Weekends
• Meeting my knight in shining armor
• My sister visiting from Georgia
• A clean house
• Getting a good night's sleep

8 Favorite Places to Eat:

• Macaroni Grill
• Red Robin
• Texas Roadhouse
• Red Butte Cafe
• Mandarin
• Chili's
• Gourmandise, The Bakery
• Burger King

8 Things on my Wish List:

• A clean house
• No weeds in my yard
• A backyard not wrecked by the dogs
• A wedding (mine, of course)
• A new car
• A nice beach vacation
• Sleep!!!
• Friends to hang out with

8 Favorite Movies:

• Batman Begins
• Strictly Ballroom
• Lord of the Rings Trilogy
• Star Wars
• What a Girl Wants
• Never Been Kissed
• Pride & Prejudice (A & E)
• Lucky 7

8 People I tag:

• Anyone
• Who
• Wants
• to
• be
• Tagged
• by
• me!

In a Funk

I know I haven't updated for a while, but I really don't have much to say. After all, it is just me and the "boys". The boys got shaved yesterday so they are both just shadows of their former selves. I probably should have waited a while longer before I had them shaved. They are both pretty cold. Thank goodness for sweaters!

So, lately I have been in a bit of a funk. I'm not sure why. Things at work are going well. I just don't really want to be there. I don't want to do anything -- not even things I usually enjoy. I usually love playing racquetball, but right now I have to force myself to go. Of course, once I get playing, I generally enjoy it. I don't feel like reading or anything else I usually love to do all the time. I guess I'm suffering a bit from depression again. My sleeping meds aren't working quite as well as they were when I first started taking them. I'm just tired of being so very tired. I'm trying not to dwell on it so much, but obviously right now is not one of those times. :) Really, everything is fine. I have a good job that I enjoy. I have a beautiful home (that needs a good cleaning). I have the cutest dogs ever that love me in spite of me. I have fabulous neighbors. I need to find a way out of this funk!

I've started a new night time routine. By 7:00 pm, I am off of the computer. I have been recording some Women's Conference talks and Education week talks (I love BYUTV!). I listen to those for a while. I read my scriptures and then head to bed. I was hoping this might help the sleep, but nope. The past four or five nights have been terrible! Oh well. I'm not going to give up yet.

Tagged

The rules:

Go to your pictures, go to the 6th folder, and then the 6th picture. Blog about it.

First off, the 6th "picture" in my folder is actually a movie. It was taken on my trip to Cancun. On one of our side trips, we stopped for lunch and they provided entertainment. It was quite entertaining.

If I want to strictly follow the rules, the 6th picture was this:

Last year my neighbor's asked me to help out with science fair projects. I went with them to the science fair to see the final products. Everyone wanted pictures. This is the picture of me and their youngest boy (he didn't do a science fair project since at this point in time he was in pre-school). The poster behind us belonged to one of his brothers.

I tag anyone else who wants to do it.

Crazy Dream

I have been having very crazy dreams since I started on my newest medication. The problem is that I don't remember them well enough come morning to write them down. Last night was a particularly crazy dream and I tried so hard to remember it so I could write it down. I do remember the basic story, so here it is:

I was with a friend in some room somewhere. We had rigged up a small circuit board with paper clips attached to a decent size power supply. We would take turns hooking each other up to this circuit board. We would shock each other (like a serious shock that would stop your heart). Once we had shocked the other one, we would hook them up to another circuit board (also made with paper clips) and shock them again to bring them back to life. We had been doing this for quite some time (I’m not sure why, but apparently it was fun to do). But, then something went terribly wrong. At this point there were three of us and we shocked one of the friends and after we did, something went wrong with the equipment. We had him (the friend we shocked) hooked up to a computer so I looked at the computer to see if he was still there. I could see him floating around inside the computer, but we couldn’t get him back. The circuits wouldn’t work. We kept trying and trying and trying. Our poor friend was trapped in an alternate universe. He wasn’t dead, he was just lost. We were freaking out. We somehow traveled in time to see ourselves create a similar machine that performed similarly to what we had been playing with. We thought if we could spy on ourselves that we might be able to figure out how to build that machine and bring our friend back. It was difficult trying not to let ourselves in another time see ourselves from the current time. This went on for a while (and I know there was a lot more to the dream in this area, but I cannot remember specifically enough to write it down). We finally ended up in some sort of research facility trying to get help from professionals. We had the computer, showing our friend in the alternate universe and we now had a baby with us too. The baby apparently was also in an alternate universe because what we had of the baby was plasticized. We would swing it around and it would stretch out and then come back to it’s original shape. I ended up waking up right in this part of the dream so our problem never was solved. Bummer!

The Newest Addition

Introducing the newest addition to my basement.... It's a pool table and an air hockey table (the table flips around). Huges thanks to Craig and Derrick that helped put it together (ok, they put it together....I tried to help). Craig and I got in a couple of games. I think it's time for a party!

Small Miracles

So, on the sleep front.... I went to see the doctor about a month ago as a follow up to the psychologist I saw. He was a bit concerned when I told him I constantly thought about taking whole bottles of pills at once in order to try and sleep. (As a side note, I'm truly grateful for the small fragment of sanity that always stayed with me....otherwise I would have followed through with taking one of those bottles.) Anyway, the doctor said that we really needed to make me sleep (NO DUH!) and so he put me on an anti-psychotic med (Zyprexa) that would hopefully calm my brain enough to make me sleep. Funny enough, my dreams have been more vivid than ever (I'm sorry, I have forgotten to write them down -- I will try to remember). I still feel like I don't sleep well and I still have a hard time getting up in the morning, BUT I do feel better during the day. I feel somewhat rested and able to handle my day. I do feel the slow down in my brain from the meds, but overall I'm feeling a bit better. I'm hoping to find a different, permanent solution (rather than drugs), but I'm truly grateful for what I have so far. I'll take it! I want to thank all those who have sent their prayers my way. I'm seeing small miracles along the way and I appreciate it!